i met a traveler from an antique land...

pavlove

Tue, 19 May 2026 20:25:16 GMT

as always, a lot has changed since my last entry. i moved to london in mid february which was fine for three months, and then the landlord decided not to renew my lease with ~30 days notice because he didn't want renters on disability. i had until the end of may to find a new place to live otherwise i'd be packing my bindle and heading straight back to the countryside, where my very loving parents (and cat) live but also where literally nothing ever happens and nobody ever leaves.

i've always thought i have incredibly bad luck or incredibly good luck, no in between. i got a viewing for a place about fifteen minute's walk away from the old house, and the landlord decided to rent to me because of my "kind aura" (verbatim). after the first viewing he told me he had a couple other people view and he just didn't like them all that much, even though they offered way higher than i could afford. so here i am! all moved in all over again, five streets or so from where i was originally.

it's crazy to me how much my life has changed since i started this website in 2019. i'm now a bill-paying grocery-shopping bachelor-degree-holding adult (no job yet, but working on that) and i spend more time thinking about which curtains to buy and whether i really need pom-bears than i thought i would at seventeen.

who knows what else the future will bring?

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i'm more likely to find a piano in the sky

Fri, 18 Jul 2025 22:31:59 GMT

the heat this summer has been relentless. i regret saying i was looking forward to the weather getting warmer. i try not to think about the fact it's all to do with climate change or i'll start doom spiraling.

there are two baby pigeons nesting in my garden, and i go and check on them every day. right now they look a little bit like dodos (i guess they'd be closely related, or something) and even though they're odd-looking i find them endearing. i hope that they grow up happy and healthy and strong - pigeons are pretty hardy, and my cat has absolutely zero interest in them. she's taken to chasing butterflies instead.

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all your boyfriends go to film school

Sun, 13 Jul 2025 18:52:21 GMT

so, i'm officially a filmmaker now. a friend and i (hi robin i love you robin) created a short film for the independent horror society's 666 challenge (you have 66hrs and 6mins to create a horror short, max length 6 mins, they really love the theme) and it is going to be screened along with other entries in a real cinema!

nothing much else has happened in the recent months - i finished severance, i got a diagnosis of hEDS, i became a tamagotchi parent, i've been hacking away at artfight like i do every year. the tide rises, the tide falls. you know how it is.

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every girl from here to soho / loves to tell me things i don't know

Tue, 04 Mar 2025 21:03:12 GMT

i know i said it was getting spring-y here but the temperature plummets as soon as the sun goes down. mum says we might get snow this weekend, but it feels like she's been saying that every weekend since october. still, it could happen. we've had snow in april before.

i'm heading to oxfordshire for a few days and then on the 13th i have a hospital appointment where i'm hoping (although i know it's unlikely) that they'll actually be able to tell me what's wrong with me this time, instead of just making something up. i've been going around in circles trying to find a diagnosis beyond "leg hurts" for... six years, at least. and i feel like someone has to know.

my tamagotchi has been keeping me company during all this bed-rest. i have a tamagotchi uni with the monster carnival dlc and a mametchi that just loves to do backflips. like, guaranteed when you turn it on he's flipping away to his heart's content. good for him! i know i would if i could.

new episode of severance soon and if i don't see burt and irving i will riot.

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spring, sprang, sprung

Mon, 03 Mar 2025 23:12:38 GMT

it's finally fish doorbell season again! i'm glad the weather is getting more spring-like -- actually seeing the sunlight and feeling the warmth on my skin is doing wonders for my mental health. it's not even that i hate winter, it just gets so dreary here. anyway, there are snowdrops and daffodils and crocuses coming out where i live, and here's hoping they don't get taken out by a heavy frost if this ends up being a false spring.

nothing much has been going on with me since i last posted. i was put on iron pills because i was severely deficient so now i'm feeling more alive, i'm all caught up on severance s2, and i've pretty just much been resting and recovering from uni. i'll get there eventually, three years just took its toll in a big way.

i also figured out how to hack my 3DS! i downloaded a DS game from japan called 'beetle king' that i'm gonna have to review because it's just so bad. like, incomprehensibly bad. fascinatingly bad. dare i say, the ed wood of beetle catching video games.

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